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Dear Pastors' Kids, Due to circumstances beyond my control I have lived a life of invisibility. It's weird isn't it? I grew up believing that "People are watching me". "I must be an example" only to wish I were invisible. So, what did I do? I became invisible. This has been a very long journey, but somebody needs to hear this. I needed to hear this. You know the old saying that everyone has new shoes except for the shoe makers children? It's true of so many career babies. We are loved, we are important but what our parents did/do came/comes before us. They loved people with all of their hearts. Don't get me wrong, But there must be a balance. What do I mean by that? I've seen it happen more often in the church world of recent times. I've seen Preacher's put their families first. Isn't that wrong? No, it's absolutely correct. Church people leave and go home, preachers meet their need, they give them good information and

Okay, so the Bible clearly says to "pray for those who spitefully use you."  I thought that meant that I was supposed to pray that the Lord would bless them. But lately I've been thinking. If Jesus told the disciples to "dust off their feet" from the towns that did not accept them coming in his name, why would he want me to bless those who use me with an evil purpose? I've also heard to "Bless those that curse you." How do you do that? I've heard people "bless people out" that cursed them... ha! But how do you bless someone that curses you? Do you give them stuff? Do you pray that their enemies fall at their feet? Do you ask God to make them rich and add no sorrow to it? .....umm...NO! I've also heard scripture taken out of context saying that "Job's difficulties turned around after he prayed for his friends."  So, how do I bless them?  See, it's confusing. Here's the scripture references: Matthew 5

Hi! I have been experimenting with different coloring pencils and adult coloring books and I have some suggestions. I have written about using adult coloring books as a great tool to de stress the mind. I find it much more relaxing  than games on my phone; such as Solitaire, Backgammon, Yahtzee with Buddies. Those games are relaxing and fun, but the changes in the light can keep you awake when you really just want to relax. First let's look at the pencils. Unfortunately the Crayola coloring pencils break off too easy. I haven't been able to get a clean tip and keep it. This surprised me because they  make great crayons. Next I tried a brand called, "Conte". these pencils are black and it is often unclear as to what color you are using until you use it. However, these pencils have a waxy coating so they last longer and need less sharpening. I found these at Walmart. I also tried "The fine touch" pencils. These keep a pointy tip longer and have to s

Remember this stuff? I have found some excellent uses for it! Let me tell you about a few: Who in their right mind...lol, would buy a white bedspread? I loved it so much that I thought, "why don't I Scotchgard  it?" So, I did! Guess what, it worked? Staying white. I also Scotchguarded a white living room throw rug. It made the room look so much brighter. In both cases I washed the items first. In the case of the throw rugs, I vacuumed them, then I cleaned them with a spray on cleaner (because I had already used them), I vacuumed them again, sprayed them with Scotchgard and tada! Did I tell you that I have a dog? Yep. He lays on the white throw rug and it's still white. I had a guy come and work in my yard, he had to come in for a moment and guess what....white carpet, not white anymore. So, I tested my theory....I vacuumed it! Guess what? Looks like it never happened. I had a beautiful fabric dining room chairs. They were amazing! I had them for over 11 years

Here's an interesting thought. In the past few months I've seen some miracles. I was obedient to make a bear or send a random gift and tada! The problem with that is there have been some miracles that are slow in coming. There's a precious little boy that is having seizures uncontrollably. I made him a stuffed animal to comfort him. My hope was that he'd be one of those miracles and find healing. Up to this point that has not happened. I felt a gift of prophecy over another child stating that his father was coming home. I fully expect(ed) it to happen. It has not, as of this writing. I, myself, have been suffering with a bout of PTSD and depression. I got "triggered" (yes that's a real thing). The little boy didn't get better and the father didn't come home (yet). Today I am feeling better and so I found someone to blame for the failures of the "magic". It had to be my fault! What???? Exactly. The little boy with the seizures didn&#

I opened my mouth and out came the words I'd heard so often. "How could you think that of me?" I was both stunned and disgusted. Abusers use those words to keep their victims from realizing they are victims. I can't tell you how many times I heard "I would never do that. Don't you know me better than that? I'm your xyz... how could you think that of me? I pray to God that this helps someone. Abusers leave scars. The physical scars are easy to show and people are more likely to help. However, there is a type of abuse that runs deep, never to be seen by another human being. If the abuser is really good, he/she will make their victim believe they are the only one that triggers this negative behavior. Years later the victim finds out that there were many like him/her that also thought they were the only one. It's horrific to find out that you were not alone in the madness. I often thought of myself as "strong enough." I know this person

Nothing political here...Just some thoughts. Hi Everybody! It's me! I've kind of been on a silent vacation. I've been doing battles in places I had no place being. Yes, I know, same word, twice....lol! In this silent vacation I had some very deep insights and I'd like to share them with you. 1) God is still God! The news has been unstable, just don't know who or what to believe anymore. Do you feel that way too? At first I thought I was just "staying informed." But today I realize I've been staying anxious. Anybody else? I've been experiencing supernatural events lately. Well, I am a supernatural event...I'm still here! I saw the movie "Break Through" last week. I believe in those kind of miracles because I am that kind of miracle. Choose any of my blogs about car accidents or cancer, etc...you get the idea.. So, what is that supernatural news? This will blow your mind. People have tried to explain "waiting on God

Have you ever done something on a whim? You just felt like you were supposed to do it. Then you did it and you couldn’t pull your jaw off the floor because the thing you did fulfilled a need and was the miracle someone else needed? I hope you have. There’s nothing like it. Nothing. First let me share with you my complete humanity . I was in a grocery store shopping at a particular table when a person “invaded my space”. She was almost standing on top of me and when I turned around I screamed “you scared the hell out of me!” She looked at me with such judgement.  I had to laugh. Later I shared this minor event with someone and I said “I wanted to tell her that I know and love Jesus, not to judge me because she scared him too”! Lol! Ok now back to the story. The past few months have been amazing,  it’s like sleep walking in a different dimension and waking up to a miraculous event . The following may sound crazy, but I’m convinced that God is crazy. From giving away a teddy bear to

So much has been written about purpose. It's all good. The Purpose Driven Church/ life , etc. Awesome and inspiring books. It sounds so wonderful. "Find your purpose and your life will matter." Hmmm....Let's take a look at some people in the Bible that knew their purpose and what it cost them. Let's start with King David. He knew when he was just a young boy that his purpose was to be a King. Did he start announcing this? Did he run an ad campaign to make sure he got the popular vote? Nope, he went back to shepherding, then onto bear and lion slaying, then onto giant slaying...then running for his life, then becoming king, then having a man murdered...oh  my gosh! Does the Bible say anywhere...anywhere that to know your purpose is to be successful? I've been listening to "Elevation Church" and "Life Church". The sermons have been quite unique and eye opening. Trust me, I'm a "professional Christian", meaning that if it'

I really have struggled with a title for this blog, keep reading and I'm sure you'll see why. The past few months the Lord has put it on my heart to give things away. I'm not talking about t-shirt with holes in them...lol. Come on, you know you've done it. I'm talking about the creations of my  hands and the visions of my soul. The tough stuff. What's in it for me? I have no idea, yet. The first bear I gave away was to a baby in a coma that woke up! I gave a bear away to a little girl going through chemotherapy....it had a big bow in its hair and promised to hold onto it until the little girl could wear it. I think I've been looking at everything through lenses that were clouded with false expectations. I expected God to use my talents and my visions and my gifts to make me rich...You know, "The blessings of the Lord make you rich and He adds no sorrow to it." Proverbs 10:22. I believe that the hand of the diligent is blessed.  "...dili