Unreasonable Determination
I have no idea why I feel so strongly today about disregarding the ever changing expectations of my world. Yes, my world. I’ve spent years trying to give life a “reason” . The “Whys” are innumerable! The “How’s” are even more daunting. My journey has been inexplicably difficult the past year and more. I asked myself “How did that happen?” “Why did this happen?” Add one more question to those.. “What?” What do I do, what did I do? So, without reasoning it out, I came up with an answer that answers none of those questions, but gibbed me courage to move forward: It just is! Do not misunderstand me. I am not resigned. I am not giving up. I’m “ unreasonably determined.” I accept who I am, where I am and am determined to move on to whatever’s next. I’ve had doubts regarding everything! I do mean everything; Who am I? What am I supposed to be doing? What will go wrong next? Will I ever be healthy? What does a true friend look like? What Dr should I trust? Why did that happen to me?