Well, at least there’s that...

I've gone through so many changes in my life and I think I thought my story had already been written. But how many of you know there has to be an ending to have a good story? I thought my story was about survival! Yes... I'm still here! Amazing! But it isn't over. I thought my story was about cancer. I'm still here. Amazing! But it isn't over. I thought a car wreck would be the end, but I'm still here, yet again. I saw a marriage fall apart, its death tore my heart apart, but I'm still here. Tonight I was at an outdoor concert enjoying worship by Iron Horse Soldiers band and music by Nicole Nordeman;. it was amazing. Nicole was talking about her life. It seems that she's had more than one as well. She was the super famous musician and artist, writer, mother and then her world stopped. It was her alone with her two children on a stormy night and I could feel her pain. As she tells it, she had been trying to keep her life together , but one night

As I was driving home tonight I saw a friend. He was amazing. I thought he'd gone for the season, but he stayed one night longer to see me as I journeyed home. The stars were out and the sky was deep blue. I was driving along with my headlights on and wondering where time had gone? The road was straight and the hills were few. I almost missed my glimpse of you. There was no left, there was no right, just trees and road were in my sites. But there you were, a light from heaven, sent to remind me I'm not forgotten. I've seen you in my little back yard, through trees and shrubs when it got dark. I almost stopped as if to say "Don't you know Fall's on its way?" You didn't care it was just you and I. You smiled as if to say  "Good night!" (My firefly song)

Okay, yeah so I’m xx years old. Does that mean that there are no firsts left for me to experience? I hope not. Wouldn’t it be terrible to reach a certain age and have done everything there was to do? So, here are some firsts I haven’t had yet. I haven’t had my first skydiving trip, bungee jump, encounter with a real lion... See, there are plenty of firsts left. Now, how about the firsts I might want to have? Well, first love...yep. Done that. Second love, yep done that too. I have three children and four grandchildren so I have many loves. First marriage, yep. First Divorce...yep. Oh God I hope there aren’t any more! So, do “first in a long times” count? Let’s try. So, today was the first time in a long time that I’ve gone to the Doctor and my blood pressure was perfect! It was my first Dr visit where I had no symptoms of depression! What? Yes. That’s awesome! I remember the first night I slept without nightmares! That was amazing. The first night I slept all the way through..oh