Well, at least there’s that...

 Have you ever believed something for so long that you didn’t even consider another option?  I’ve heard and even sung about “ seeking”. You know , “seek and you shall find.” It sounded so simple.  I envisioned myself knocking on doors in a room full of doors until I found the right one.   I’ve given that a lot more thought lately.  I was looking back at patterns in my life. Someone would give me a solution to a problem and in my heart I’d say “that’s not it” and move on.  I think I’ve gotten better at moving on when the door isn’t the one I need.  For the longest time I’d go to one door and knock and knock and even though I was getting undesirable answers I kept returning. Let me take you back to my bout with cancer.  I knew something was wrong. I went to the Dr and he gave me antacids and told me I was fine. I went back to him and told him I was in a lot of pain and he said “cancer doesn’t hurt “. I went back again because I couldn’t sit up by myself and my stomach looked like I was n