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I opened my mouth and out came the words I'd heard so often. "How could you think that of me?" I was both stunned and disgusted. Abusers use those words to keep their victims from realizing they are victims. I can't tell you how many times I heard "I would never do that. Don't you know me better than that? I'm your xyz... how could you think that of me? I pray to God that this helps someone. Abusers leave scars. The physical scars are easy to show and people are more likely to help. However, there is a type of abuse that runs deep, never to be seen by another human being. If the abuser is really good, he/she will make their victim believe they are the only one that triggers this negative behavior. Years later the victim finds out that there were many like him/her that also thought they were the only one. It's horrific to find out that you were not alone in the madness. I often thought of myself as "strong enough." I know this person

Nothing political here...Just some thoughts. Hi Everybody! It's me! I've kind of been on a silent vacation. I've been doing battles in places I had no place being. Yes, I know, same word, twice....lol! In this silent vacation I had some very deep insights and I'd like to share them with you. 1) God is still God! The news has been unstable, just don't know who or what to believe anymore. Do you feel that way too? At first I thought I was just "staying informed." But today I realize I've been staying anxious. Anybody else? I've been experiencing supernatural events lately. Well, I am a supernatural event...I'm still here! I saw the movie "Break Through" last week. I believe in those kind of miracles because I am that kind of miracle. Choose any of my blogs about car accidents or cancer, etc...you get the idea.. So, what is that supernatural news? This will blow your mind. People have tried to explain "waiting on God

Have you ever done something on a whim? You just felt like you were supposed to do it. Then you did it and you couldn’t pull your jaw off the floor because the thing you did fulfilled a need and was the miracle someone else needed? I hope you have. There’s nothing like it. Nothing. First let me share with you my complete humanity . I was in a grocery store shopping at a particular table when a person “invaded my space”. She was almost standing on top of me and when I turned around I screamed “you scared the hell out of me!” She looked at me with such judgement.  I had to laugh. Later I shared this minor event with someone and I said “I wanted to tell her that I know and love Jesus, not to judge me because she scared him too”! Lol! Ok now back to the story. The past few months have been amazing,  it’s like sleep walking in a different dimension and waking up to a miraculous event . The following may sound crazy, but I’m convinced that God is crazy. From giving away a teddy bear to

So much has been written about purpose. It's all good. The Purpose Driven Church/ life , etc. Awesome and inspiring books. It sounds so wonderful. "Find your purpose and your life will matter." Hmmm....Let's take a look at some people in the Bible that knew their purpose and what it cost them. Let's start with King David. He knew when he was just a young boy that his purpose was to be a King. Did he start announcing this? Did he run an ad campaign to make sure he got the popular vote? Nope, he went back to shepherding, then onto bear and lion slaying, then onto giant slaying...then running for his life, then becoming king, then having a man murdered...oh  my gosh! Does the Bible say anywhere...anywhere that to know your purpose is to be successful? I've been listening to "Elevation Church" and "Life Church". The sermons have been quite unique and eye opening. Trust me, I'm a "professional Christian", meaning that if it'

I really have struggled with a title for this blog, keep reading and I'm sure you'll see why. The past few months the Lord has put it on my heart to give things away. I'm not talking about t-shirt with holes in them...lol. Come on, you know you've done it. I'm talking about the creations of my  hands and the visions of my soul. The tough stuff. What's in it for me? I have no idea, yet. The first bear I gave away was to a baby in a coma that woke up! I gave a bear away to a little girl going through chemotherapy....it had a big bow in its hair and promised to hold onto it until the little girl could wear it. I think I've been looking at everything through lenses that were clouded with false expectations. I expected God to use my talents and my visions and my gifts to make me rich...You know, "The blessings of the Lord make you rich and He adds no sorrow to it." Proverbs 10:22. I believe that the hand of the diligent is blessed.  "...dili

The world has not come to an end..lol. I’m just cooking. It’s ok. Here’s a healthy meal that looks pretty and looks time consuming, but it isn’t... time consuming, I mean. (3 servings) 3 red bell peppers Brown 1 pound of lean ground beef Cook 1 cup of whole wheat rice Add 1 can of garbanzo beans Add 1 small can of tomato sauce Add 1 clove of fresh pressed garlic 1/2 a yellow onion Italian seasonings (as much as you want; no salt required) Start the bell peppers first. 350 degrees for 20 minutes. Do not over cook the bell peppers. You want. them to remain firm Cook 1 cup rice separately ( use instant wheat rice it takes about 10 minutes to cook) Brown the beef, **Do not drain the beef** add Garlic, onions, Italian seasonings, tomato sauce, garbanzo beans and add cooked wheat rice and simmer about 10 minutes. The bell peppers should be ready. Stuff the bell peppers using a spoon standing then up tall. Turn them on their side and add parsley (for color) If you use ins

Let's talk about Job. He got a pretty bad wrap from his friends but then God did something amazing. Watch this.. Job talked plainly to God. God listened then answered Job, then told Job to pray for his friends? Is God crazy? Job  needed help his friends, they thought all of Job's troubles were because he made God angry. He wasn’t well when he prayed for his friends! That’s madness. ( The Message Bible ) Before God healed Job he and God had a deep conversation. In chapter 6 Job said, "The arrows of God Almighty are in me, poison arrows- I'm poisoned throughout! Is it any wonder that I'm screaming like a caged cat?" He continued his rant and ends it by saying in chapter 6, "All I want is an answer to one prayer, a last request to be honored. Let God step on  me - squash me like a bug and be done with me, at least I'd have the satisfaction of not having blasphemed the Holy God before being pressed past my limits!" Wow, I think Job was mad.  La

I was going to call this edition "Red flags", but I am giving you so much more information than a "warning " flag could convey. Let's talk about online dating scam pattern. As with any scam there is a pattern of behavior. I have experienced these repeatedly. Step 1) question... "How long have you been on this site?" This question is to see how gullible you are and to see if you have been scammed before. It is a test to see if you qualify and even to see how desperate you are to find a suitable companion. If you answer "I am new to this site", then all bets are off. Well, what if you are new to the site. You don't have to tell strangers anything. That's a very important rule to apply to anything done online or even in person. Let's call it the "I do not know you" rule. Step 2) "You are the most beautiful woman/handsome man, I've ever seen." Followed by "Where are you from?" Okay, let's

I'm not going to talk about "clinical anorexia". Why? Because there's nothing  clinical about it. We have been under-educated in regards to anorexia. There have been many medical articles and even testimonials written about it. So, why am I writing about it? Because I've looked it in the eyes and I know its name: death. I started starving myself at a very early age. It wasn't really noticeable because people just thought I was a "finicky" eater. At the age of 12 I weighed 78 pounds and was five foot 2. Maybe that doesn't sound dramatic for a 12 year old, but it was for me. I had no strength, I was sick all the time and I was suffering silently. Anorexia starts out as a way to control things around you when there is nothing else you can control. I had a lot of difficulty growing up. I "believed" (why, nobody knows) that I was a mistake and that I had ruined people's lives by being born. Do Not blame my family. I doubt they realiz

I'm going to tell you a couple of stories (real life events) then pose two questions "Do you believe you have favor ?" and "How would you live differently if you did believe it?" First story. I met a young lady that needed a new robe, slippers and pajamas. What she had was "well used". So, I found out what sizes she wore and said, "Okay Lord, what are you going to do?" I then went to Walmart (Did you know that God uses Walmart?) lol. I walked around and guess what I found? They had a robe in her favorite color, they had bedroom slippers just like her (dead) ones and they had pajamas in the right size and they were all on sale! The robe was $3.00!!!! Nothing was more than $3.00. When I gave them to the young lady she said, "God really loves me." I said, "Yes he does because I told him what you needed and asked him what he was going to do about it and ....tada...this is what he did."  There was something else this young